beautiful

I want people to have a good impression of me. I’ve always been the type of be concerned with what others thought of me.  I would love to say that I am reliant upon God for my confidence. I should be; what’s more beautiful than being the only Lauren Elizabeth Allen with my DNA, my thoughts, my experiences and my heart? WELL, if you were to ask me I could probably name about a thousand things that are, in my head (and in real life), more beautiful. Starting with a list of women who are far more beautiful than I could ever dream to be.  But I am not here to complain about what I dislike about myself. So, MOVING ON!

On Friday, a woman I respect and look up to very much gave me an interesting viewpoint that I have NEVER considered before. It sounds cliche, but I don’t really care. In reference to a guy, she asked me, “if he wasn’t so good looking, would you be in this position right now?”, simple answer… no, if he was significantly less good looking, the chances of him holding a spot in my mind would greatly decrease. I’m shallow. GREAT, I yell at my brother for this and now I am faced with the facts that I am shallow.  My dad said that he knew he wanted to marry my mom when he was asked “if Darcie was in a fire and had disfiguring third degree burns all over her body and face, would you still love her?”, obviously he said YES, so he waited to get married when he knew FOR SURE it wasn’t just a superficial attraction. Okay, so, point is… I don’t think I was/have been paying enough attention to the HEART of people. I’ve been a little swooped up by the exterior, but guess what? When a relationship happens, I’m not dating a face, I’m not dating a status or a skill, I would want to date someone for their soul, their character, their heart, their passions, etc.

I feel a lot like a feminist bra-burner when I say this, but, this over-emphasis on the superficial has got to go! That’s not saying  that everyone should just stop caring about what they look like— I mean c’mon…gotta feel good about yourself, but to base relationships off of looks is just asking for failure. It’s not all about being a “pretty couple”, or a “high-status couple”; all those things are so temporary. My super wise woman friend said, “I think that’s why God created old age”— ahhh! So freaking great! Because when it all comes down to it, everyone will get old (yes… 60 is 60 no matter how much botox is in your face)… we will all have wrinkly skin one day, we will all get fat (or just saggy) and GUESS WHAT, we won’t be as attractive. So you better like the person you commit to because if they have an ugly soul but a great face… what will be left once their hair falls out and their bod sags like Mary-Kates clothes? yeah, nothing.

 

that’s my mind this weekend.